The war that never won

tell me something that i dont know,

please

no more lying.

im sick of it

no more fake smile

no more falls hope

tell  me the truth

lead me to the reality

confess to me about all the lies between you and me,

 stop arguing,

because its sickening

stop screaming

because im deaf,

stop crying 

because im  blind, 

stop kindness 

because im heartless,

give me a reason to stand strong,

give me reason to speak up,

give me reason to smile,

give me reason to laugh,

give me reason to lead a normal life.

just shot me straight to the heart.

because im lifeless

stop me from bleeding much deeper.

dont save me 

because i am already dying

dont cry for me because im not worth for the tears

but please smile because im worth for the joy.

just let this soul die,

and change it with a new one.

change the concept.

change.,

leave whats bad for me

and 

take whats good for me

things happen once,

and things happen twice.

but none i will ever regret.

accept the fate

is whats best. 

please dont leave me.

for you i bleed my self dry..

when i know that things are not happen as planned,

when joys turn into tears.

when friends do fight over.

when lover need to say good bye.

when i really knew maybe it was my mistakes.

when i drop down to earth and cry.

sometimes i really wish i can turn back to times,

when time are really good.

at the moment where i am closed with the person whom i really loved.

where i think that they are my everything that i ever wish i had in my life.

but time and people much envy me,

for the gift that god gave me..

which is them.

and slowly, they slips away from my my life.
silently..not with a single sound.

and again, i am being left alone.,broken and fragile.
becouse i really need..them.