Al-Kisah

rasa benci kan bila ada orang yang mengambil hak orang lain?

nak buat macam mana, duit tip pon boleh nak berebut

kalau ketua pon korup,

jangan haraplah anak-anak buah nak jadi yang terbaik.

kau sendiri tak tunjuk contoh yang terbaik

tapi mengharap kan pulangan yang terbaik.

sedarlah diri wahai manusia,

kau sendri tidak sebaik mana

janagan lah nak perasan baik,

berlagak dengan kata-kata saja,

hakikatnya indah khabar dari rupa.

bawak-bawak la muasabah diri,

Jangan sampai aku belikan cermin besa bagi kat kau

untuk kau cerminkan diri tu.

tolong la nyah, mak menyampah macam sampah.

I deserve.

Ur just no better than me,
so dont ever dare to judge me.
You can just sit and play fool around,
feeling that ur the best.

You and your men are not going anywhere.
Put shame on you,
you got northing to be proud off.
Just an asshole and bullshit to talk about.

Blame me if i curse,
but i deserve too.
So take all your good for nothing attitude
and get a life.

im making my self clear,
one day you will get your pay.
Allah is fair.

hoi hooligan.

tiba-tiba. aku terkenangkan memeori dahulu.

beberapa tahun dahulu.

di saat kita gemar mengaku bahawa kita hooligan.

seronok rasanya,.

tiada masaalah yang tiada penyelesaian.

gelak dan gelak.

seronok kan menjadi hooligan.

Korang Paling Istimewa.

kalau aku pernah buat korang bengang dan bangang, 

harap maaf.

aku insan biasa.

tapi korang tetap kawan aku

and aku akan selalu treasure that,

aku harap kita akan terus

 menjerit, gelak dan melompat sama-sama lagi ye.

from left: asma, sue, aku.

kami sangat camera freak.

so what kalau kami berangan nak jadi rock star?

aku, antara yang paling kuat mengamok.

Tapi still paling gila, bila kena mood.

ini asma die kuat tacing. 

Tapi die baik hati dan salu kena buli.

sue, dia selalu perasan cantik dan selalu yang paling gila.

3 jiwa 1 kepala

through all the hardship, he`s still stand strong behind my back.

we enjoy our friendship.

and also our hardship.

kan gila? 

betul tak?

why so serious?

 he so wanna be rock star.

hatters please back off.

we are doing just fine.

F.U.C.K

They say,.

F- friends

U- you

C- can

K- keep.

hence, i FUCK all my friend.

The war that never won

tell me something that i dont know,

please

no more lying.

im sick of it

no more fake smile

no more falls hope

tell  me the truth

lead me to the reality

confess to me about all the lies between you and me,

 stop arguing,

because its sickening

stop screaming

because im deaf,

stop crying 

because im  blind, 

stop kindness 

because im heartless,

give me a reason to stand strong,

give me reason to speak up,

give me reason to smile,

give me reason to laugh,

give me reason to lead a normal life.

just shot me straight to the heart.

because im lifeless

stop me from bleeding much deeper.

dont save me 

because i am already dying

dont cry for me because im not worth for the tears

but please smile because im worth for the joy.

just let this soul die,

and change it with a new one.

kenapa jadi macam ni ye?

saya minyak maaf.

tapi saya terpaksa cakap.

saya pun tak tahu kenapa jadi macam ni.

tiba-tiba je.

dah perasaan tu datang tiba-tiba takkan saya nak paksa kan?

iye awak, tiba-tiba je rasa terkilan.

saya sedih.

maafkan saya ye kalau saya merajuk tak tentu pasal.

bukan niat saya.

hati dan perasaan saya ni sangat sensetif.

tak tau kenapa.

baru-baru ni je,

sebelum ni tak pon.

mungkin semuanya berlaku terlalu cepat.

saya sendiri pon tak sempat nak biasa kan diri dengan keadaan.

kalau lah aku ni hanya tembok,

selfish ke aku?
dulu aku susah tada yang datang tolong pon.
sekarang aku senang dah,
pertolongan korang tak penting.
bukan aku nak berlagak,
tapi ni lah pengajaran yang aku dapat dulu.

dulu
aku tak reti nak terasa.
tak reti nak makan hati.
tak reti bahasa,
tak reti kena kutuk,
tak retu kena pulau.
tak reti nak merajuk
tapi tu suma dulu.

sekarang.
aku boleh terasa,
aku boleh merajuk,
aku boleh mengamok,
semua pon boleh.
sebab,
aku ade hati dan perasaan,.

kenapa kalau korang yang buat tak apa.
bila aku pulak tak boleh.
aku dah penat nak buat semua orang COMFORT,.
COMMON la,
aku pon manusia jugak.

konon-konon

ini apa yang kau pernah cakap dulu lah,.
iye satu masa dulu.

hm..
even kite ade couple,
kawan yg paling best..

even kite ade kawan yg stab back,
kite banzai!!

teringin jugak nak tgk macam apa yang di katakan.

tapi sekarang tak dah,.

tula orang kata dulu lain, sekarang lain.

masa depan lagi la lain.

pelik kan?

itu lah manusia, semua nya akan berubah.

cuma kadang kita yang tak perasan.

saya budak milo

Thanks awak.

Makan ice cream sama-sama,

Minum Ribena sama-sama.

Gelak kuat-kuat.

Awak da jadi budak Milo sebab saya.

Awak da cucuk langit dengan saya.

Kita jadik degil sama-sama.

dan

buat orang rasa annoying sama-sama.

Biar la ape orang nak kata.

Janji kita bahagia.

recepies of internal happiness

im leaving
all this nothingness inside of me.
as im confused.

leaving all this mess

and heartache.

screaming and shouting.

frown and misery

hatred and sadness.


im just me.
too optimistic maybe.
take me as i am 
or 
just leave me for who you dint like.


for the sake of happiness,
throw all those hatred away,
live the life to the fullest
love yourself for the way who you are
and
dont hate for what you are not.

its just not a part of my dream

solid and well planned.

hurt and loved.

pain and desire.

it is too late

 when i start to realize that he is a part of my dream that can never came true.

i stumble when i try to walkaway

and i choke when i try to say goodbye.

now im trying my best, all heart out.

once and for all.

im leaving.

thanks for the memory and the heartache.

all my life i`ve been waiting for someone like you.

  

the only exeception

tiba-tiba saya teringat,
saja nak baca sms-sms lama yang awak pernah hantar.
ade 1000 lebih dalam inbox.

semuanya indah.
dan saya tersenyum sorang-sorang.
setiap kata dan janji akan saya ingat.
dan setiap memori akan saya kenang.

biar geram macam mana pon.
tapi bila teringat
awak akan selalu bejaya buat saya senyum,

biar banyak mana pon kata maki yang pernah keluar
dan walau banyak mana tenaga yang pernah bazir sebab gaduh.
yang penting saya yakin.
kita tetap bersama.

untuk dia yang bernama kekasih.

hanya untuk awak yang satu.

mungkin saya memang napak tak kesah,
tapi tak bermakna saya tak sayang.
mungkin saya tak tunjuk.
tapi saya bukan tak suka.
mungkin saya tak tanya
tapi saya ingin tahu.
mungkin saya tak senyum
tapi tak bermakna saya sedih
mungkin saya ketawa
tapi tak bermakna saya gembira.

lagi-lagi kerana awak.

saya memang tak suka orang tahu tentang kita
kerana hidup kita biar kita saja yang tahu.
bahagia kita, kita saja yang rasa.

dan saya memang tak suka bila
ada orang yang cuba mengangu hubungan kita.
saya benci.
saya benci bila dia dulu pernah bertakhta di hati awak
saya kecewa bila dia juga masih di ingatan awak.
saya sedih bila saya tahu dia masih mahu kan awak.
saya benci bila dia ada kenangan dengan awak.
saya benci bila dia juga masih ada bila kita bercinta.

tapi saya tahu
saya kenal sayang saya.
saya  yakin dia tetap saya yang punya.
kerana saya ada cinta dia.
kerana dia saya yang punya.

jadi kamu..
tolong lepaskan dia.
kerana dia milik saya sekarang.

kini aku bersumpah.

rasa lemah yang teramat sangat,
rasa nak mati.
bunuh, bunuh saja perasaan ini!

ia tidak lagi mulia
dan tidak lagi suci.

sesuatu yang aku perjuangkan
dengan sepenuh hati dan usaha.
kini binasa,
begitu shaja.

atas alasan,
kesilapan aku di masa silam.
ya,
memang silap aku.
semuanya hanya aku, aku dan aku lagi.

oh tuhan.
aku tak kuat.
sangat lemah di saat ini,
tak kuat nak hadapi semua ini.

memang mati bukan penyelesaian.
tapi biarlah perasaan ini mati.
untuk selamanya.

dan aku akan tutup rapat hati ini.
takkan ada yang akan singgah lagi.
itu sumpah aku!

angerah yang saya dihargai..

tiada yang istimewa nya saya

tiada yang sangat cantik untuk di banding kan,

tiada yang pandai untuk di tanya kan,

tiada yang banyak harta untuk di belanjakan.

tapi

saya ada sekeping hati

untuk menyangi,

untuk merindui,

dan pasti

untuk dia.

dan 

saya ada akal

untuk menilai pengorbanan dia,

untuk berfikir tentang masa depan kami.

tiada yang menarik tentang kami.

semuanya biasa saja.

tapi saya ada dia

dan dia ada saya.

itu sudah cukup

biar lah kalau korang tak suka.

tak apa.

biar lah kalau korang tak paham

kerana tak perlu.

saya dah kata kan,

cukuplah untuk saya 

hanya dia.

perasaan ini bila...

kita gaduh,.
jerit-jerit.
marah-marah.
nagis-nagis.

nasib tak bertumbuk.
saya kena maki,
awak pon kene jugak.
padan muka kita.
tapi tak semua benda yang kita cakap tu kita akan maksud kan.

saya tak suka perasaan ni.
saya tahu saya bodoh, bengong pon iye jugak.
ade je yg kurang di mata awak.

tapi tak pelah,
saya dah memang gila pon.
gilakan awk.

saya janji,
saya tak buat lagi.
tak buat awak marah, tak buat awak kecewa.
dan tak buat kita gaduh.

my rainbow and marshmellow.

you make my heart mellow..

at the moment im keeping it closed and tight.
you came along..
slowly..
knocking on my door..
as loud as you can.
just to let you in.

you rock my world..

at the moment im thinking of facing this world on my own.
you give it a new start,
make my life fun again.
make know that life is worth sharing together.

you came  along..

at the moment my life is bitter..
you add up some sugar, salt and spice.
make it more tempting

well
i just dont know why..
at this moment..
everything is you..

ouh dear.,

i wonder,

do you miss me?

do you miss me like i do?

do you miss me like you miss others?

do you?

or did you?

well it just happen.,

i do miss you.

its not a mistake.

change the concept.

change.,

leave whats bad for me

and 

take whats good for me

things happen once,

and things happen twice.

but none i will ever regret.

accept the fate

is whats best. 

just like a rainbow..

 you saw me cry,

and  still you sat there listening

later,

.

you said " dont let those frown take a way your beautiful smile"

and now, see i am smile ling. again!

 thanks,

for being the rainbow that comes right after the cloudy days.

im glad that today, i meet you.

i should have done it.

tiada lagi cinta.

tiada lagi rindu.

tiada lagi penantian.

hanya khianat, khianat dan khianat.

jangan tunggu aku, 

janggan rindu aku,

dan jangan ingat aku

cukup!

saya sayang awak tau.

kan saya dah kata, saya sayang awak.

iye, itu lah awak tak percaya.

saya takkan sampai hati tinggal awak sorang-sorang.

kita tetap kawan..

ye saya janji, sampai bila-bila.

sampai nafas saya yang terakhir.

itu janji saya.

swollen eyes

tired. too tired for this shit.
so many tears has drop and yet dry.
why dont i just leave?

so that no more of this tiering shit

dah la, penat dah ni nages,.

mata pon dah naik lebam.

pada muka aku kan.

hihi

ok, 

sekarang aku dah dapat jawapan.

so takpayah nages-nages lagi.

aku cuma nak lompat tinggi-tinggi sampai langit ke 7.

boley?

boley belah..

lalalala

xoxo

thaks ciq!!!

do you remember?

please dont leave me.

for you i bleed my self dry..

when i know that things are not happen as planned,

when joys turn into tears.

when friends do fight over.

when lover need to say good bye.

when i really knew maybe it was my mistakes.

when i drop down to earth and cry.

sometimes i really wish i can turn back to times,

when time are really good.

at the moment where i am closed with the person whom i really loved.

where i think that they are my everything that i ever wish i had in my life.

but time and people much envy me,

for the gift that god gave me..

which is them.

and slowly, they slips away from my my life.
silently..not with a single sound.

and again, i am being left alone.,broken and fragile.
becouse i really need..them.

the girl in the dress with a mess

once, she is just a girl.

naughty and unpredictable.

she try anything and do everything to pleased herself.

she is brave enough to walk in the dark,

and even talk to stranger.

for her, the world is just so big to be scared off.

there she go,

wondering and wanting the world.

when it gets too tough for her to handle,

she will just cry.

as hard as she can and still,she walk and stand strong.

now, the girl once is in a mess

change into a bold lady in a red stilettoed.

always looking on the brighter side of the life.

as if i care its valentine

i love you

for the way you are.

for the way

you make me smile.

for the way

you make laugh.

for the way

you make me cry.

but

i still like you,

i still miss you.

like before..

something to start with.

a walk to remember,
a picture to capture,
a hands to hold,
a friend to love,
a love to share.

a tears to wipe,
a shoulder to cry on,
a problem to solve,
an odds to walk against,

tell the world how you needed them so much
and scream it out loud.

invincible and unnoticeable.

i wish you look that way,
you beautiful eyes looking deeper to mine.

telling me most than any word could says.

you don't even know im alive,
all i have been is invincible to you.

separuh nyawa aku mencuba.

again lost.,

being swept away by emotion.

just cant keep it away from my thought

it will always remain there

someplace special in my heart.

now

im stopping to believe that everything will be alright in the end.

just need some time to regain my strength.

because its him who take it all away from me.

bits and pices of my life

kalau saya kata saya cinta,

awak takkan percaya.

jadi saya diam.

supaya awak percaya.

kan bagus kalau tuhan jumpa kan kita lebih awal.

di saat itu awak bukan milik sesiapa.

pastinya saya akan cuba

membuat awak selesa berkawan dengan saya.

walaupun untuk satu tempoh masa yang sangat pendek.

kerana, selepas ini.

kita tidak akan berjumpa lagi.

saya tahu, haluan hidup kita berbeza.

SMile XD

life is about taking risk,

where you only know that there is only 2 out come,.

is it worth or not.

be brave, seek for what you want and not others

seeing is believing.,

but not all things are better of seeing.

trust in yourself and always believe that everything will be alright.

try to get the best out of you,.

after all it is you who decide your life.

new year shopping list

in this coming new year, people start with a new year resolution.

but instead of that i came out with a new year shopping list...
here are sokme thing that i found missing for this coming new year.

1. i need a new pair of shoes, heels maybe.
2. new pair of jeans.,in light blue color
3. a new bags for collage.
4. new scarf for my messy hair
   
5. new color lipstick.
6. a new camera (really-really want)
7. some new cloths.
8. for sure new perfumes
9. new friends.
10. and a new boyfriend (if its not to much)

is there anyone who want to go shopping with me?
i will be glad..